《Freefall 》作者：- Sean F. Stevens【EPUB】

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Freefall. By Sean F Stevens. Copyright Sean F Stevens 1997 amp 2001. FREEFALL I turn and look back the way I came for the last time in the middle distance the smoke risesup to the red evening sky pointing to where my life ended to where the warehouse thatcontained all my sins is even now burning and being reduced to ashes and vapour in aconflagration of once-pure intentions and ultimately impure actions. Seven years... Seven years Ive watched as if I was a spectator watched as my life at first entered aprotracted nerveless limbo and then a rapid downward spiral. My life in free fall ends todayno longer shall I be an audience at my own damnation. The spasms hit me again but they will pass. The needles of red hot iron in my gut are merely afirst stage alert a warning from my over burdened nervous system to never come this way againnot knowing in their instinct driven reflex that I am on a one way street. I look up at themoon and the emotions overwhelm me I cry for perhaps the first time in my adult life orperhaps the first time since yesterday I can no longer be sure of my recollections. Who could have thought for I certainly had not that something so coldly beautiful couldpossess such a curse I shake my head to try to clear it of the chaos inside to try to expurgate the demons thathave paralysed my brain for so many years. I havent got time for even the briefest of pauses.I must act now before I let my doubts and uncertainties mount into a wall of negativeprobabilities and halt my actions in an impasse of logic versus emotion. Whether I live beyondthis day is not an issue but I must free myself of my dark karma. I have a man to kill a man I know well. Seven years ago wed stood side by side on the lip ofthe moons south polar crater as one entity we had smiled for the cameras and set to work onour research. Together we talked of the great possibilities of the frozen water that had hidden in its depthsfor a time beyond count. We took our samples guessed our guesses posed for the cameras oncemore and then retreated to our lunar laboratory again unknowing that our damnation was athand. We found the impurity almost immediately